A Day in the Life…While Indigenous

This past Saturday was so much fun, albeit hot and exhausting. I am training for a race in Colorado this weekend, and it was a beautiful morning for hill training. I had breakfast with some of the San Juan Jazz Society, went to my Nalí’s (grandpa’s) 85th birthday party, and met some friends at anContinue reading “A Day in the Life…While Indigenous”

Healing While Indigenous

TW: This post discusses thoughts of suicide. My emotional dam broke earlier this year and I almost drowned in my grief. It’s not something I planned on dealing with in 2021, or ever, if I could help it. All through the winter and spring I was choosing to be happy in a relationship with aContinue reading “Healing While Indigenous”

Love, Strength, Hózhó

Religious institutions have done catastrophic harm to Indigenous peoples over the centuries. The stated mission of government boarding schools was to “civilize” Indigenous children by eradicating Native culture and religion. This genocide was sponsored by the United States government, and carried out by religious institutions, in the name of Jesus. This was done by dividingContinue reading “Love, Strength, Hózhó”

The Earth Turned Upside Down

This spring I began working with a new therapist as I waded through the deepest depression I’ve experienced to date. When my therapist, Joan, asked about the possible sources of some harmful beliefs I held, I talked to her about my former relationship with Angela, my high school youth minister. This was nothing new. YearsContinue reading “The Earth Turned Upside Down”

Healing While Indigenous, an Introduction

Yá’át’ééh. Shí éí Darrah Johannes Blackwater yinishyé. Béésh Bich’ahii  nishłį́ dóó Tsi’naajinii bashishchiin áádóó Béésh Bich’ahii dashicheii  áádóó Táchii’nii dashinalí. I am born for the Metal Hat clan. I am born of the Black Streak Wood clan. My maternal grandfather’s clan is Metal Hat. My paternal grandfather’s clan is Red Running to Water.  This isContinue reading “Healing While Indigenous, an Introduction”